It's like he never mattered

The event was all so tragic, as to was our life. Both of us violent, a real dangerous kind of love. As a whole our time together was somewhat of a story. From the outside in I can see how one might read it and cringe. Even if explained thoroughly using every word I could possibly fathom to help describe ALL aspects of the situation... I still feel like it would all just be word vomit... Because, you see, like every case you've ever watched on television... Everyone has ugly parts... For me, my loss feels isolated, buried, forcibly accepted. Betrayal, death, betrayal and complete loneliness. There is only one thing that has made sense and that is the "plateau" so to speak is very.... Very real

 

My son's passing was

I lost my son in a very violent sudden way. April 6th of 2016 changed my life forever.