Hi, My wife passed away (she was 48 yrs) about 6 weeks ago. She was in hospital getting treatment as she normally did and it was like any other treatment she got before that. So receiving a phone call early the morning that she passed was an extremely shocking moment for me. We were married for 16 years (both our 2nd). We knew each other for 2 weeks and 4 weeks later we got married. The rest is/was history. People keep asking how you are doing. I feel like shouting that I am not doing good, I struggle to cope, I am still crying every day. How can I tell people I am doing good? Even OK? At this point I do not look forward to anything. Go to work, eat if I feel like it, sleep. Repeat. My daughter from 1st marriage do visit as often as possible, and we have 1 grandchild, 6 months. Someone said the other day to me that although my wife is not here anymore, my grandchild is. But that does not really comfort me. I know I have to be there for them. When I close my eyes at night, it is still only me though. Alone. And I know people will say time heals.....feels like I'll never recover from the shock.