I lost my sweetheart on December 11th. We were holding hands when she passed. I sat there in shock. She had battled Multiple myeloma for 4 years. She was the bravest person I ever met. But near the end she had less fight left. I cared for her st home those 4 years between ER visits, tests, surgeries and such. Now I sit alone at home and weep a lot. I miss her so much. Now I'm so lost, who am I now? Where do I go from here? So many unknowns to face alone!