We were so close. I miss her so much.

My mother died on November 8th after 4 years in a nursing home after she had a stroke. She was already so precious and after her stroke was even more precious. I feel like I cannot live without her. I think about her all the time and don't really have anyone to talk to. I guess my friends n family think I'm ok. I'm not ok. I'm hurting so bad. I'm not suicidal. I just want the Lord to come and take us all up to be with Him. Is anyone listening?
Thank you, Adriel

 

I am so sorry for your loss! I can completely empathize with your emotions, the misunderstanding of being "okay" has rocked me the most as well. There isn't a minute that goes by that my mom isnt in my thoughts and my agony to talk to her is beyond words. I have come to realize my family and friends that havent experienced this loss will not know until it (so unfortunately) happens to them. I have expressed my desires to just need to be with her, without being suicidal, but it is hard to explain. I have read several books recently that have helped but it is great to hear that I also am not allow in this journey. It is so terrible and heart wrenching. I find for myself it comes without warning but so severely that i cant even make it through a day