It’s been a while since I’ve looked at the site. I see the heartbreak, actually I feel the heartbreak and the pain and you wonder will it ever subside going away completely I have my doubts. I feel for all of you I know none of us ever thought we’d be here talking about the loss of the love of our life. It is now almost 2 years and five months since I lost my Gina, and right now I am sitting in my living room getting ready to go see my daughter in Colorado. It is bittersweet for my wife loved and went there many times while I was working so she could seeOur grandkids. This is what we worked for for saved for to do in our retiring years which we never got to do. I always wonder how others are doing after the two year mark I find that it goes by pretty quick and in truth what everybody said after the first year you are just cried out. Now it’s just like living but just going through the motions this crap is so hard. traveling without her, man she did everything all I had to do was make sure that I have my wallet that’s just how she was took care of always getting ready. I miss her every day I guess that never ends and have no clue what the future holds. I say this to everyone this is the price we pay for love be strong and very courageous.