Thought of an old friend and found out he died 2 weeks ago

I had a really good friend in high school that I haven’t thought of in 30 years and all of a sudden I thought of him. I’ve never googled any of my friends before but for some reason, I googled him that morning. I was shocked to find out he died only 2 weeks ago. I wished that I looked him up sooner. The last memory I have with him was after graduation and we talked about looking each other up in 20 years. Our paths took us to different trajectories. I learned from his FB account that he was single, had 2 children but never got married. I got married and took up my husband’s last name and have no FB account with my old name. It’s been 30 years and all the emotions came flooding back as if it was yesterday.

It’s been a few months but I’m still feeling the loss and confusion as to why after so many years, I suddenly thought of him only to find out he died. Is it possible he thought of me before he died? I’m so gutted…anyone have similar experience? Thanks

 

I have not had the same experience, but I know how hard grief hits. Even though you had not seen this person for 30 years, there is still the grief of losing someone you had a bond with.
I know you are suffering. Have you thought about trying to contact his children maybe through FB? If you could offer them some comfort about the good memories you have, it might be helpful to them and also might lift some of the haviness of the grief from you.
You can ask God why, but He doesn't always provide an answer, I was told. However, if you draw really close to God, I know from experience that He will always comfort you and provide some meaning to what is troubling you. I was told by my Christian counselor that God doesn't always let us know why, which is okay, because after all He proved how much He loved us when Jesus went to the cross to take our place for all our transgressions so that we could again come into communion with God. Whenever I had a question, this counselor would always stop and say, Let's pray about it. I had a question of why things happened as they did and as we were praying God spoke into my spirit the answer. It was the answer I needed. God never lets us down. He is forever faithful.
Hugs to you,
Chris