one week ago today my sister hung herself in the hotel room she was living in with her boyfriend. She has been battling addiction and mental illnesses her whole life. 5 years ago she attempted suicide by jumping in front of a freight train but she survived. I really thought she had a second chance to get better. She lost her only son to the state because they thought she was unfit to raise a child. They were right at the time but I believe she got better. And she was better for the past few months. She didn’t leave a note and didn’t say goodbye. Something just took her over the edge and I have no idea what. I wish I just knew the truth. I wish I could help her and have her see the light. I wish I could’ve said goodbye to my only sister. The one who took care of me when I was little.
Only a week ago, this much be diificult for you. Its good that you posted, i hope you get to read this reply. For me its been nearly 3 months, my boyfriend took his life and i found him. But every day im getting a bit stronger, some days are easier than others. This is hard, and i have let the guilt made me feel so bad, but i will not give up. Because there is no benifit in the guilt i feel, i am trying to come to terms with it. I would like to tell you that i understand and im praying that you have strength right now. I stay busy at times and speak to a counsellor every week. Do you have people you can talk with? I am thinking of you at this time. Stay strong
So sorry for the loss of your sister and that she wasn't able to overcome her struggles. My sister passed away 8 mos ago due to illness. She was my "big" sister and always watched over me so I know how difficult this is for you especially the circumstances in which she passed. Sending you big hugs.
