Singing my song

In 2010 I began the journey of caring for my brother my father and my mother my brother went home to be with the Lord in 2013 my dad went home in 2015 my mother went home in 2018 and my husband suddenly passed away August 21st 2019 it's been a double whammy for me it's hard for me to wrap my head around all of this and I am now trying to reboot myself and don't know how to find myself again.