My husband of 32 years passed on March 28 2024 he just had his 52 year birthday on March 15 he was battling lung cancer we were just getting ready to start the 3rd and final round I watched him battle 8 months of pain wishing I could take away just some off it I believed we were going to beat this on Saturday before he died we had so much fun just watching TV cooking even threw his pain woke me up on Sunday and he could not breathe I know he wanted to be home but I was scared and called the ambulance they took him to hospital sunday on Monday they but him on a vent and thursday he was gone so many things left unsaid none of this seems real and I still feel the guilt like I did not fight harder for him he was my best friend my soulmate we did everything together we had five kids and 17 grandchildren now I'm lost I wander around in a daze I talk to him all day I know he is near I feel him but my heart is so broken sad and alone
I am so sorry for your loss. I know what you are feeling now. On December 30th of 2023, I lost my wife of 34 years suddenly to a pulmonary embolism. It has been a pretty tough ride so far this year. Guilt is a very common emotion as I have discovered during some group therapy sessions I have been attending. Do you have a good support group, or have you thought about joining a grief support (something like GriefShare)? This has helped me immensely. It is still a pretty painful process though. If you'd like to talk anytime, we are here for you....
