My Mom Patricia Anne Hollen died October 28, 2024. She was awesome. She lived to be 90.5. Although it was expected it still felt sudden. She went in for a procedure, that went well, then she had a complication, which they repaired. Then she just slipped away. For the past 6 years she lived with me and my husband and teenage son, he was 10 when she moved in. I was her primary caregiver, she had COPD and was on Oxygen 24/7 had breast cancer and wet MDA. But she was sharp as a tack. Kept up with technology and was my best friend. We had our morning coffee together, ate lunch together almost everyday, and dinner too and Wednesday was our special night. It was a great gift for her to live with me the past 6 years. She told me the 2 days before she died what a gift I was to her, she said "Kathy you are a gift, how did I get so lucky" I smiled and told her I loved her. I always thought and told her it was a blessing to take care of her, although it was hard on me and I was burning out a bit, I still loved her and didn't want her to go. I miss her SO MUCH. I cry everyday at some point. I feel ok and then it hits me. I have so many feelings all the time.
My mom died 11/18/23 and I still start every day missing her and crying, and after the day is done, I end the day the same way. So many feelings, all the time. I don’t really know when they will start to be easier, but the void, not hearing her voice, laugh, advice, personality, seeing her eyes and creativity, just doesn’t seem to diminish.
