Hi, I lost my dad in the middle of January this year, but we weren’t in speaking terms for months before that. I had tried communicating with him for months but it had been hard to get through to him. My birthday is coming up in May and all I can think about it that the last decent conversation I had with my dad was on my birthday last year. Just thinking of my birthday reminds me of every other holiday I have to go through and he won’t be here for. He died before I got the chance to even fall in love and get married. I never thought I would have to think about these things so soon, I mean I’m only 22 I didn’t think Id loose my dad this early in life. Does this ever get easier? Will I ever stop thinking of milestones im going to have throughout my life that he won’t get to experience with me? Does it stop hurting?