My youngest son died from suicide on October 15,2023 at age 34. Now that it’s been 16& 1/2 months, my family exude to be over it & moving on. I’m finding this year harder than last. I have so many triggers and cry more often. I’m not sure why. The guilt is overwhelming & my family keeps telling me it’s not my fault. But I can’t help feeling there was something I should have or shouldn’t have done. No one seems to understand. I feel very isolated and misunderstood. Will this ever get better?
Hi I lost my son 37 heart attack and UTI this February 12th .He was a multiple handicap person from 9 months. I was his constant caregiver along with his mom. It was unexpected a shock. I'm the one who gave him CPR. I failed. I have found some consolation that at least I did the best I could have. He had a happy life and was loved completely. I just got on this site today and can't tell you much except you are not alone and you can forgive your self because you know you are worthy of that like my son would never blame me for this circumstance we always will love each other. You will heal in your own way God bless you
We also lost our youngest son age 28, as a result of suicide. I found the second year to be even worse than the first. I believe it is because the first year, whether you realize it or not, your mind is trying to deny that this awful tragedy even happened. The second year is even harder because it really sinks in that we can no longer see our son while we are here on this earth. I understand the isolated feeling you are experiencing. I felt it was because for everyone else life continued on, but for us it stopped the day our son died. No one who has not experienced this kind of shocking tragedy can really understand. You really can't expect understanding, just continue to tell them you are still trying to process what has happened and you are struggling. It doesn't matter what they think. Who is it in your family who expects you to get over it and move on? Someone close like husband or children? May God give you peace of mind, Chris
