Lost My Only Son

Discussion in 'Loss of Adult Child' started by T4087, Jun 18, 2024.

  1. T4087

    T4087 New Member

    It's been 11 days since I lost my only son suddenly and unexpectedly. I don't know how to grieve and move forward with my life. I don't know what I should be doing or feeling. I am lost. Will the pain ever be bearable?
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  2. Suntracker

    Suntracker Active Member

    Hello there so sorry for the loss of your son. I was caring for my Mom when my brother passed 4 months ago and then she just passed to be with God a week ago. I saw her when she was hurting from losing her son, my brother and she was crushed. I tried to provide her simple guidance each day to try to eat and if you are anything like me this is difficult. I sometimes don't eat but if I can't I try to make a smoothie with avocado to get something in. I was shaking and getting dizzy so I figured I would eat and force it down. If you have someone you can call each day to talk then do that, or type in here what you feel each day and what you are going through. I used to say to my Mom there will be good days and not so good days and now I am telling myself these things as I feel the pain. I was having a good day today cooking, cleaning (but still haven't eaten) I cooked for my boyfriend though, so it gave me something to do. I then got a phone call, and it had the town my Mom lived in on the caller ID and I felt scared and got emotional. I ended up listening to one of the voicemails she left me a month or so ago. I had not heard her voice in a long time because when she was in the hospital she was intubated. I got so emotional and still am but what I am doing is coming in here and I saw your post, so I type to you. I know the pain I saw in my Mom after she lost her son. I was praying so hard and trying to lead her to God, but she was mad at God. I said believe that I believe, and she said OK, so she made a beginning. God counts that as perfect. I know she is with God now and also my brother and this doesn't always console me but when I think of how beautiful God's love is then it does bring peace. Stay here and connect with others going through the same as you and it will guide you through. xoxo Heather
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  3. T4087

    T4087 New Member

    Heather thank you so much for your response. You can't imagine how much your words meant to me. My condolences to you and your family on the loss of your mom and brother. Eating and sleeping have been hard. My husband has been making sure I eat and drink something every day. I have moments when I can't stop crying. I allow myself to cry for as long as I need to. Then there are moments when, I think of him and laugh because he was always laughing and smiling. I know my baby is at peace with God. He also would not want me to be sad or stop living. But right now, I am grieving badly. I have asked God to help me with the pain. Guide me through this time and heal me from the pain. I know in time that things will get better. I will grieve for the rest of my life but hopefully, it won't be as painful as it is today.
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  4. Chris M 2000

    Chris M 2000 Well-Known Member

    I am so sorry for the loss of your dearly beloved son. There is no replacing him. For myself, the only way the pain was bearable was to completely cast my care upon Jesus Christ and have confidence that He would help me-and he did.
    God is full of mercy and grace and willing to help us when we are at our weakest.
    Hold onto hope and your faith and God will carry you through.