Lost Mom 2 days ago after brother.

Hello fellows, I just lost my Mom 2 days ago and I am still in shock. I was in a daily turmoil of going into the ICU to see her every day for 20 days. One day I would think she was getting better and then the next it would be she isn't getting better. I knew my Mother had cancer and that she had stopped her treatment, but I did not know how it had progressed. She had so many health issues that I found out about during her stay in the ICU. My brother passed 4 months prior just one floor away from where she was in the hospital. I believe she lost her way in taking care of herself when overcome by my brother's illness and his eventual passing. I was the one to be the help for both of them during their illness and hospital stays. I do not know how I am still standing except that I asked God to lead me and guide me every single day. I am struggling eating and having grief attacks since Mom went to be with God 2 days ago. I am beside myself and typing this is making it more real, but I need to not be isolated. My boyfriend lost his Mom a couple of years ago and his father just last week so we are kindred souls more so than ever. He is a spiritual horse for me that helps me come out of the intense emotion before it hurts me too much. I now have a new fear about being alone and I am triggered by so many things as my Mom's life was totally intertwined with mine. I was caring for her after my brother also and my nights now are not going to the hospital or to her place so there is a physical change in my routine. I can see how God gave me the opportunity to be there for them both and I am so very grateful we made some amends and had some time together. I want to continue to type my experiences to share and read your experiences so I can be on a journey with others in the healing process. Possibly go to a counselor or a support group, just have not found one yet. I am sure it will happen if/when it is supposed to. I do know God is looking out for me and my boyfriend at this time and I know my Mom and brother and father are surrounded by his LOVE. My father passed over 20 years ago so it is just me from the family in this dimension now. I believe they are in spiritual bodies and free from the pain, thankyou Jesus. I am the one now that needs help to be free from the pain in my living body. I know spiritual help heals the emotions and the mind. xoxo

 

Dearest Suntracker, my deepest condolences for the loss of your mom and your brother, to your boyfriend as well, so much loss. That is certainly when you find out who you true boyfriends, friends, and family are. Check with a local hospice, they should have the resources that will lead you to a grief group or individual/couples therapy.
My heart reaches out to you and your boyfriend. God's blessings be with you.
~ Michael

 

Thank you Michael

 

May God's abundant love and strength heal your mind and emotions and the terrible physical pain that greif brings with it.
I am sorry for the losses you have experienced.

 

Thank you xoxo

 

Spiritual condolences and blessings to you and your mother and brother. I, along with others, send you the ultimate spiritual power to embrace the strength the Supreme Being is projecting to you. Take a deep breath and breathe out slowly while you both ask for His divine grace and direction for both you and your soulmate. Both, your mother and brother are there with you and can hear what you want to say to them and if you both stay still and calm, you will feel their presence. It would help if you have both their pictures to look at while you are doing this. I would suggest to use a white candle and experience its glow while you reminisce in the memories of them and share them with with your soulmate or not, if you choose not to. I myself, would have a voice recorder if they feel a desire and strength to communicate back with you. Don't be upset if they are not ready to communicate back at this time, with everything going on. But, let time pass and see and hear what happens in the future.
Godspeed