I am lost. Nothing to live for. All my friends have deserted and cut me off. They have no understanding of what I am going through. Who am I. My oldest daughter is dead. Second daughter is addicted and lies. No support. My husband is not supportive. He is not their father. I had to cut ties with my toxic family. I just need help. Can’t sleep. Nothing helps. My insurance will not cover any psychiatric care. I have to pay cash.