Loss and recovery

One day your going along normal then in an instant its not. Its like a piece of your world just fell off into the abyss,and your
Standing on a smaller part. And its cold and dark and suffocating and so painfully but you cant escape, the first day I just sat there staring out a window until I fell asleep. the next morning I ran around the house looking for him but he was gone. So I froze again sat looking out that window. I thought the world should stop. But it didn't. But I did I didnt move.
I did this again for a few days untill a chore had to be done, it seemed ok some how because it was necessary.
So I did it and sat back down and froze again. Then I realized during the chore I was breathing and not thinking about the pain and for 15 minutes I unfroze.
The next day another chore had to be done and the same thing happened.
Then I realized being busy on necessary needs was my way to breath.
It became my goal and I was breathing again.
Maybe it could be your goal.