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its very confusing for me...

Discussion in 'Coping After a Sudden Loss' started by susan beaulieu, Jun 17, 2021.

  1. susan beaulieu

    susan beaulieu Active Member

    being in a sudden remission from a very long very debilitating clinical depression(correct diagnoses,correct meds ,hospitalization that began the very day before my husbands very sudden death) in total conjunction with my worst fear coming true.
    he promised he would never leave me alone to face this world that frightened me so much.that made me so miserable.and he did..and im still here and morning no longer frightens me and dread no longer follows me and i miss him incredibly and i feel responsible and im so sad without him here.
    what are people thinking,suddenly seeing me in makeup,out of my pajamas & smiling when my husband dropped dead and i wasnt even home?
    but i dont care what they think...or maybe i do or i wouldnt have mentioned it
    my relief from the torture of mental illness is palpable
    my absolute grief over another day without him is palpable.
    who is this new susan and what SHOULD i be feeling?
     
  2. Allyndrew

    Allyndrew New Member

    My name is Allyn and I recently lost the Love of my life