Isolation has became my new reality

Two years ago, I lost my first heart wrenching loss. My dog Sophie. Sophie taught me to love, laugh, enjoy life. I took a dark path trying to numb my feelings because everyone says the same thing or you get tired of explaining your pain. My father understood my pain. Earlier this year he passed away from cancer. Another pain people don't want to understand or listen to which who wants to be a part of that club. Now I find myself unfulfilled and not connecting with anyone. Isolation

 

I understand as I lost my dad in 2013 and now I have lost my mom in August 2025. I am single and no kids so I am all alone now and isolated as well.

 

I lost the woman who was the best thing that ever happened to me 10 years ago.we didnt have kids, so there are no grands. i was doing relatively well until the shutdown, work, meetup groups. but the meetup group i was in got disbanded and my job was a 2020 causalty. so there went my social life. during the shutdown, i was mostly on my own because i was preparing for a major surgery and then recovery. i work from home now, i dont see coworkers, the meetup group is gone, they dont talk to me anymore. my family moved away and i feel like i'm an obligation because i only see them on holidays. for me, its almost like the shutdown never ended. sseeing people with other people out in public, especially couples are terrible for me, even 10 years later. winter doesnt help becasue i hate the cold, add to that i'm still having health issues. retirement is coming soon and i'll be eating cat food, because my 401k got eaten during the financial crisis. i hate the life i have right now