I lost my first baby 9 days before the due date. There is no clear explanation for what happened. My family is in Africa. My mother is recovering from a stroke and I can’t cry to her about my feelings. I am not sure anyone understands what I am going through. I am confused and don’t know how to face my loss. It’s now one month since we buried him. I stay alone at the house while my partner is at work. My friends are very supportive. I have so many unanswered questions. Please help guide me on how to mourn for my sweet baby.