She'd been extremely sick for alot of her life so part of me is relieved that she's not in pain anymore and passed away in her sleep. On the other hand, my grief and pain is so deep. I've been crying non stop. I can't believe she's gone. She was fine last night and when I awoke in the morning, she was gone. There wasn't anything I could have done to save her. We were going to do so many things together. Now she'll never see me get married or anything. I just can't believe she's gone. I'm hurting so much. I don't understand why she had to die now. I kept thinking she'd die when I was older, when I was more ready. I don't know what to do. She was the person I talked to for advice, for help, for comfort. When I need her the most, she's not there. I just keep thinking about all these big milestones she's going to miss. It's my first day today without her and the idea that have 50 or 60 more years of days without her is crushing me. I don't know how to continue on.