I have lost almost my entire family in 8 years all I have left is my son

In the last 8 years I lost my sister then her twin brother who I found dead in his room and then my other brother and then The father of my son Exactly a month before he was born and I recently just lost my mother who Helped me in so many ways With my son and bills and just life and now she's gone and the way she died was horrible She had a bed sore on her back that was so big and deep and it got infected as she died Because of it They must not have been moving her So she didn't develop bed sores they just left her lying there she had a stroke and an aneurysm and I tried to get her into the best skilled nurse facility I even tried to get her transferred to a different hospital I called there every day wanting to talk to the doctor and be a part of the team meetings every week and nobody ever called me back and I couldn't make it up there to see her much because I didn't have anybody to watch my son and he was only 1 and they wouldn't allow him inside and when I did make it up there to see her I didn't see her back so I didnt know And I feel so guilty I feel like I can't deal with life anymore Medications don't help therapy doesn't help I'm under so much stress because everything's put on me now and I have no one to lean on. I don't know what to do anymore

 

I understand. I lost my sister in Sept 2019. Then in 2020, I lost my Dad, then 6 months later, my mother-in-law. In 2021 I lost my husband. Now in 2023, I just lost my Mom in August.
I didn't get to process my grief from one, and another passed...overand over. I am so confused, depressed, anxiety ridden