Hi everyone, I’m 23 and I lost my best friend/girlfriend of 8 years 5 weeks ago to postpartum depression/mental health, and I didn’t even know what PPD was until 2 months after our daughter was born. Our daughter is 8 months old and I’m severely struggling to cope with juggling life and grief. Life has been a steady stream of challenges over the last few months - my partner was really really unwell mentally and I had been trying my best to care for her down to bathing her, along with caring for our daughter, working, holding down a home and trying to finish my degree at uni. After she passed away, I was so busy dealing with arrangements and the aftermath of it all that everything has just fully sunk in the last couple of weeks. It’s completely overwhelming - I haven’t been eating, sleeping, keeping on top of our house, working, or doing anything really, I’m just too exhausted and any time I try do something, anything at all grief hits me like a tonne weight. I keep going over all the questions our daughter will have when she’s older and the struggles she’ll have to face and how I wont have a clue how to help her navigate it all. When I think of a widower, I think of someone much older than me who has lived a full life with their partner (it doesn’t make their grief less valid obviously), but we’re 23 we had a full life ahead of us, had only just started our family. I feel so guilty for how angry I am at her, for leaving us this way and for the fact I cant even walk into my living room anymore without feeling sick to my stomach. I love her so much and I miss her so much it actually physically hurts and i dont want to be angry at her. i know im rambling on, this is just the first time I’ve even attempted to get my feelings out and i’m just a mess. Does anyone have any advice on navigating grief and juggling it with actual life/parenting etc?