Homicide show 19 years later

I lost my older brother 19 years ago. I've done a lot over the years to cope, but this year a regional TV show in the south profiled my brother's murder with reenactments and a few names change. It was surreal to see and brought up a lot of old trauma.

The actor they hired nailed it, really captured my brother's mannerisms and how he talked. And in some strange way, my brother may of liked the idea of someone playing him... I just wish it was not about his most tragic moments.

 

Wrote this poem 3 years after my brother died in a creative writing program in college. Developed it for about 3 years. It helped me let go some. In the early year, I was compelled to retell his story whenever anyone asked about how he died...I felt like the Rhyme of the ancient Mariner. I realized I was getting better, the first time I said that I rather not talk about right now.

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Descriptions of blunt trauma /death

 

I am so sorry for your loss. And for reliving your trauma because of that show, but I am glad you feel your brother was played "correctly". Wishing you all the best ...