I lost my husband suddenly on April 17, 2024. He struggled with alcoholism and likely underlying mental health issues. We were not on the greatest of terms because of issues with the drinking and conflict with his daughter. I work out of town and his mother called to tell me he had passed. I got though the services but then everything changed. His maternal family and daughter blame me for his death and I was not allowed to have any memorabilia of his despite paying for his services. His mother is very disparaging towards me. I have conflicting thoughts in my head. One voice says did he really even love you and then another one says did he know how much I loved him. I am so conflicted and confused on the inside. I didn't plan for anything else. I kept praying and believing that we would make it through this rough patch. I intellectually know it will not happen but I'm having a hard time accepting it. Despite his issues, he was really special to me. He understood me and got me..
