My beloved husband and I have one son, who got into a college that he really wanted to go to. He just accepted the offer and was very happy that he will be going there. I was also happy for a moment and then a tidal wave of grief almost knocked me over when I thought about how my husband, his dad, wasn't there to enjoy this moment. I didn't want to ruin the moment for our son, so I held back my tears, but started sobbing when I was walking the dog. I am also overwhelmed by the knowledge that our son won't be living at home in the Fall since the school requires Freshmen to live on campus (Fortunately, the school isn't very far away, like a for a friend of his who will attend a school that is a 5 hour airplane ride away). But, still, I will be alone (except for the dog) which I haven't been in my whole life really. Then there is graduation and so many other events, occasions, holidays that will come and my husband won't be there. How can I bear this? Any advice on how to get through "happy" events without breaking down? I even wish I could enjoy something someday.