Coping with first birthday and Easter without husband

Just had my 1st birthday with out my husband Bruce. My husband always bought me beautiful cards. Thankfully my daughter bought me a beautiful card . Now have to do Easter . I can't do it at my house like I have for so many years. Its been almost three months since the love of my life passed. I have cried every day since his death. Some days I cry only a little. Other days I cry alot. I'm sad ,heartbroken and angry that he is gone. The stress is taking a toll on me. My upper back aches alot. I know its because I hold all my tension there. Getting wrinkles under my eyes that I didn't have before. I know everyone tells you time heals. But the more time goes by and spring is coming. I miss my Bruce even more !!! Now I have to go in our back yard where we played cards on the deck and played bean bags and no husband to play with or talk to.