My husband died suddenly of a heart attack almost four years ago. He was 59 and I was 57. We had just celebrated our 15th wedding anniversary for a total of 21 years together. We had been a blended family with kids from our prior marriages but were now empty nesters and looking forward to retirement. In an instant, all of that was gone. Four years later I have retired, sold our marital home and moved to another country. But I still miss him intensely every day. I still feel like I am not whole, like I am missing a part of myself. I still talk about him way too much when I meet new people. In many ways, our relationship continúes to define me. What can I do to move forward?