I have been terrible for a week now. Every day I'm thinking about and missing her the whole day thru. Don't know how many times I've cried but I know I've cried every day at least 2 or 3 times. I was doing so well with my grief! This past week has been a set back. I'm in shock again and can't believe this has happened. I talk to her like she's still here. I'm very hard to be around but hate being alone. I wasn't even paying attention to the calendar until today when I realized tomorrow is another 2nd of the month. I don't want to live this way. Tomorrow is a good day to start getting better again. I'll go to bed early and have energy to start a GOOD day! Wish me luck!
Grief can be weird. One day you're fine then the next it seems as if it jus happened. It can come out of no where. Everyday is a challenge all you can do is take it one second at a time. As I was reading your post I was wondering if you were emotional because of a significant date coming up. Then I saw you said the 2nd of the month was coming up. How did the day go? I was like that the week of the 4th of July. I didnt no what was goin on then I realized the 4th was coming. The 4th was one my fiancee's favorite holidays. It got better after it passed. I hope you had a good day. Sending good vibes your way that you continue to get strong.
Thank you Sweetcole. You're right about the date coming up. I guess it was odd because it was the whole week long before the 2nd. It seems once the 2nd got here I was better and today I'm much better. Augh! I can't figure it out. From now on I'm going to think of the 2nd as "begin my new life" day. See if it helps. Thanks for your thoughts. Peace to you!
