In March I lost my heart dog. Then in July, I lost his adopted brother. In October I learned that my friend of 40 years ended her own life after battling mental illness for many of those 40 years. And then last week, I lost a sister. I just really need this year to end with no more loss.
So sorry for your loss, may the next year better than 2023 for you. Find a good emotional support if you can.
You have suffered so many close losses. It is difficult to imagine how hard this is for you. Keep communicating with us on this site. We have all suffered huge unimaginable losses, but I know God can help you because He brought me through this painful, heavy grief. He is a rock who will hold when everything else around you has fallen or is falling. Read you bible, especially the psalms. There is much encouragement there and you will find one that exactly expresses the feelings of your heart. We love you. Hang on. Stronger and better times are ahead for you. Chris