Hello, My name is Alexus, 21, and a expecting mother. A few days ago the father of my unborn child, fiance, best friend, other half, the love of my life committed suicide out in front of my apartment when he shot himself in the head in his vehicle that was parked in front of mind. We were arguing throughout the week about the most stupidest things. He has never brought up suicide til that day. I was the last person to see him and talk to him. I thought we were okay because he said he was going back to his aunts house after we layed in bed together. I was getting video calls from him after he left my house. He had a gun in his mouth I clicked off the video. He called again and was talking crazy about how he was going to pull a gun out on the police. He didn't like to be around the police at all. I hung up and called his mother saying that he needs to get some help. After his mother called me I heard the gunshot outside and fell to my knees crying. His family is blaming me for his suicide. Everyone keeps telling me that it was his choice to make. He was so happy when we found out I was pregnant. Our first child together. He had never acted like that before. Everything reminds me of him. I haven't stopped crying. I went to my doctor and suggested to see a counselor because I'm high risk of having a miscarriage.