On November 13, 2017 I came home to find my wife dead. She had attempted suicide on June 4, 2017. I always promised her that I would protect and care for her, but this time I couldn't. My wife is gone and I am alone. I have a brother whose been supportive of me, but he has his own family. I don't have a family and my upbringing was saturated in abuse. I am so lost and hurt and don't know how I will feel in 5 minutes from now. I feel like I have been on a roller coaster ride.